It was rough going there for a minute

But, I got thru the second part of my three part educational plan, receiving an Associate's Degree in Broadcast Communications this past May. It didn't take me as long as I thought it might, and that's a good thing. All that walking to school (two miles one way!) just about killed me (and probably ruined my left knee forever).

The pain is being kept to a dull roar at the present time. I looked into that new precription drug for FMS, and I'm not sure I like all the side effects. With my luck, I'd have one or all of them. That's just the way my luck seems to work these days.

The good news is that I may have health insurance as soon as August, because I can get a policy thru the university I'm attending to work on my Bachelor's. I still have questions to ask about pre-existing conditions and all that.

I'm going to be moving closer to the university, so hopefully my commute will be much less. Gas prices hurt my bottom line, and the closer I can get to campus, or a bus line, the better it will be for me.

Hopefully, I'll go into a long period of normalcy as far as flares are concerned.

--MorelaterZ--

Pain redefined...

I know stress aggrevates my FMS. I know that diet sodas containing aspertame makes things worse with my FMS.

Since the last post in July or whenever it was, I've been under a bit of stress because of my finances. Because of school. Because of other things I'm not at liberty to discuss in this venue.

And not a bottle of Aleve in sight.

When school started for the fall semester last month, I had trouble staying alert in class. I discovered Diet Pepsi Max in the Cafe at school and bought a bottle. I was wired for about four hours.

And not a bottle of Aleve in sight.

Natch, I was in a lot of pain this past week. It all caught up with me...

Sitting for long hours in class, plus a workstudy job doesn't help either, but I can usually handle that with either Aleve or Tylenol.

It seems that the pain is more intense than I remember it being. It's time that I really find a doctor to help me so that I don't end up crippled before I'm fifty. Then all this schooling will have gone to waste, then where would I be? I don't want to rely on others to get me thru the day, the rest of my life.

This scares me. A lot.

What am I waiting for? A miracle, perhaps. I don't know. All I know is that I can't go on like this indefinitely. I don't want to be any more of a burden on people than I already am.

--Morelaterz--

Ohhh, I'm so sore...

I feel like crud today. Major flare goin' on here...

Everything hurts, and not because I am now walking everywhere. I don't know what I did, or didn't do, to hurt this much. My Aleve is gone, and all I want to do is sleep.

I don't know how much longer I can go without seeing a doctor about this. I feel like I'm falling apart.

--MorelaterZ--

Can't sleep

It's 4:45am CDT and I have yet to fall asleep tonight. Despite the fact that I took Aleve before I went to bed, I'm still in a great deal of pain.

Can we say flare? I knew you could... boy, does this suck. If there is a good side to this, at least I don't have to be in class today. My summer classes start a week from Monday.

Well, it's off to bed... perchance to dream.