Same shit, different day

Same results: turned down again.

What do I have to do to get these peoples attention that I have a real, legitimate, and verifiable problem??? I have no idea what the doctors I saw said about me, but SSA has concluded that I am not disabled under their guidelines...again.

Perhaps if they tested me in a work situation, then evaluated me on how I felt hours and days afterward, then they'd see it. But they don't work that way. They give this mamby-pamby test that doesn't show them jack about my specific problems. It's a generic test that was developed long before FMS was an "accepted" disability.

So, I'm putting in for a reconsideration, and came to the library to print out the ten page form I need, but I forgot the stupid floppy I put it on!

I'm also going to call a lawyer to help me this time. If they can't get me benefits, then I may as well throw in the towel and live my life like "normal" people and live everyday of my God damned life in excrusciating pain.

My mother even asked if I was going to give up. She'd like that, because then I wouldn't have an "excuse" not to work and give her money. Hell, no, I'm not giving up. And when I get the money I truly feel is due me, I'm going to finish school and get the hell out of this damned Blue State who don't give a damn about people like me.

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Feelin' bleh...

Two weeks ago, I caught this awful cold, and I've still got it. Now my sinuses are infected and it's just wearing me out! I have no appetite to speak of, all I want to do is sleep (which for me is good, by why do I have to be sick to sleep well?), and I'm even more exhausted than usual.

On top of all this, I've been a flare for about as long, so the two together is not doing me any favors.

And, I've entered into another battle with the state of Oklahoma regarding my being disabled. I'm trying to get funds to go back to school so I can work again at some point (being retrained is what they call it), and the woman I talked to at the Dept. of Rehabilitative Services was not very encouraging. It's kind of like trying to get Disability and SSI through Social Security...they have to get copies of my medical records and crap like that, and I can expect an answer in about 60 days or less. Meanwhile, I've already enrolled in school and will start in the next couple of weeks. I've gotten a grant and a student loan, but I have to come up with a balance on my own, so that's why I went to DRS.

Why do I bring all this frustration upon myself? I know it's not good for me, but I want to go back to work, and for that, I have to go to school and learn new skills.

What can a gal with FMS to do to improve her lot in life? I'm tired of sitting around being unproductive. I'm not the kind of person who can sit by and watch the world pass me by. I wasn't put on this earth for inactivity. I don't want to depend on "the dole" to get me by. I want to get on with my life, and if it takes me going back to school and having to ask the state for help, they should be thrilled! I'd be one less disabled person they'd have to worry about.

Why can't they see it once my way? Everything Zen...I don't think so!

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Well, anyone with FMS coulda told ya that!

From Yahoo! News:

Another study done with a few folks with FMS about how they perceive pain.


Patients with chronic pain disorders, such as fibromyalgia, appear to have abnormalities in the self-monitoring mechanism that allows the discrimination of internally produced versus externally produced stimuli, new research shows.

Well, that falls in line with everything I've been reading lately.

The results suggest that chronic pain disorders "interfere with the correct function of the self-monitoring mechanism that normally allows us to distinguish self-produced from externally produced tactile stimuli."

I coulda told them that without a study!

Tell me something I don't know!


--MorelaterZ--

This is interesting

but it's not telling me anything I didn't already know.

From ABCNews.

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